Sunday Afternoon my dad had another seizure. i didn’t think anything of it because my dad is always in and out of the hospitals. so i shrugged it off, today my dads doctor told me that there is a good chance that my dad will not make it out of this one. Hes on a ventilator that’s breathing for him 100%. i never really believed in god after my mom passed away, but i can’t afford to lose my dad. i know i cant handle it mentally.
Keep My Dad in your prayers tonight..i’d appreciate it greatly.
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its been awhile since i really sat down and realized how many people i actually can count on. i’ve lost and ive walked away from so many people in the past few months, its absurd. Promises were broken for stupid reasons and i know if i could go back i still wouldnt change a thing. no matter how much i miss my old friends i love the ones i have now even more. why? because they sat there and watched me go threw everything and still didnt leave. These past few years, ive been compelety miserable even when i was around my so called “friends” but lately i’ve been so happy, like actually happy. Since ive lost my mom i never thought i’d ever fully experince happiness again but..as my senior year winds down and i start preparing for college i realize that i made it. i’m going to college i’m going to make her proud.
and most of all i realize i’ve made it without any of you. All those nights we sat under the stars promising to be friends forever are compelety meanless. The promises, The Pinky Swears, The Smiles, Laughs and tears are all just meaningless.
This whole experince has taught me one thing, to ALWAYS move forward. friends come and go, some are great and some are shallow. but thats nothing to dwell over, life is tooo short to be worrying all the time.
Things i’ll never say.
i won’t admit it to you but i really do miss you.
i miss hanging out with you everyday, texting you weird faces and walking to the waterfalls together. i miss watching movies with you and taking weird pictures. i miss the way you made me feel, the way that you would make me smile just by being there. Most of all i miss the way i was with you, the way i knew i could be myself without being judged. it kills me to walk right past you in school and not say a thing. but maybe it is sopose to be like this, you seem happy and i was happy untill now, but ill move forward eventually, i don’t know if you’ll ever see this, but if you do..i just want you to know, that even though we don’t talk, there isnt a day that goes by that i don’t think about you.